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Well, I traveled! – 01

I was struggling a lot to find the roots of me not being interested in traveling. It took lots of energy and self-discovery, and you know that it is torturing to dig into your emotional wounds when you are close to 40 years old! Actually, you may not know unless you are around 40, and you have done it. Well, believe me then! It is torturing. I realized the reasons could be that: I do not consider the world outside safe; I get stressed out in stations, airports, and any… Read More »Well, I traveled! – 01

Just an intense night after immigration

I am sitting on my coach, and tears are in my eyes. Suddenly, I felt so sad, maybe lonely? I missed my sister and my mom. I talked with them on a video call today. We laughed and talked. But I just miss their hug. I need to be touched, you know? The other day, I read something very accurate on Twitter from a Persian girl living outside the country. The gist was: “Touch me! I have forgotten how to be touched after immigration. Here, I can only do handshakes.… Read More »Just an intense night after immigration

Germany smoke alarm VS Iran news!

Last night, I was lying down on my couch, reading Iran news. As always, another young boy was killed in prison. Javad Roohi. He was sentenced to death “three” times months ago, and lots of people tried to stop that. They succeeded, but the regime finally killed the boy in prison after torture.  Can you imagine the burning hell you feel inside your heart when you read such stuff? Some people say, “Do not read the news! You are not in Iran anymore! You have one life, enjoy it! You… Read More »Germany smoke alarm VS Iran news!

Life seems stable, weather does not!

Any shocks after immigration? Yep! Definitely weather!  What is wrong with it, guys? Last night, there was a scary hurricane. I woke up in the middle of the night, staring outside my bedroom window at the huge trees bending here and there. I was literally hiding in my blanket, and every time there was a lightning strike, I was closing my eyes and hiding more.  I was thinking, “Oh, holy cow, what is wrong with the weather here? two days ago, the sun was shining like hell, and I was… Read More »Life seems stable, weather does not!

What’s wrong with the ground?

I almost every night talk with my sister on video call. She is in Iran and is not interested in leaving. Definitely not because she is satisfied there; on the contrary, she is furious. But she can perfectly rely on her inner world and inner peace in toxic environments.  We talk about lots of stuff, and some of it is so good that it can become a book! A show! An important “something”! All of them, of course, include exchanging news about Iran. Did you see that breaking news? Did… Read More »What’s wrong with the ground?

There’s no scape from Deutsch!

It has been almost 15 months since I have been in Germany. Oh man, how fast it went by! I was almost sure that I would speak German by now, but it was not that easy. Honestly? First year of migrating to Germany is like an emotional hell. Especially if you are alone. Particularly if you are from Iran and you have never been in Europe, yet alone Germany! And again especially if you have a new job in a 100% new work culture with the pressure of: what if… Read More »There’s no scape from Deutsch!